Only a person has a history, only a person has a future.
You may think “In 2010, I was doing such and such”. Who was it that was doing such and such? In your mind, you may have a belief that there was this younger version of “you”, a sprightlier body-mind, performing some action in the past.
That belief only holds if you think you are a body-mind, moving about in space and time. That’s not what you are.
Thoughts arise, actions arise, sensations arise, and so on. But they all fade again, and what is remaining is you. The true Self.
There is thinking, perceiving, sensing - but no individual object-me that is the subject of these “events”. There is just knowing, but knowing that is dynamic - Awareness, or Awaring.
All knowing is You. At the moment, I am feeling the breeze against my skin. I look up, and see the trees swaying. I hear my daughter playing a video game. Feeling, seeing, hearing. Language suggests there is a subject “I”, experiencing an object - a breeze, trees, sounds. There is no such division in reality - in the moment there is only the knowing.
Only afterwards is there reflexive thought which mistakenly claims that an “I” is separate from what is experienced.
There is no evidence that this is the case - it is a belief that can be discarded.
Take a moment, if you like, to gaze deeply at an apparent object. Notice, only afterwards, that in the experience there is only the gazing - no “me”, no “object”. Just a gazing, a seeing. Oneness.
Every knowing - every touch, sound, smell, sight, thought - is You. You are not a “thing”. You are radically different from everything you have been taught to think about your Self.
Therefore you don’t have a history, or a future. You don’t have a life. Only an object-me or thing can have attributes such as these.
You may have a series of memories which trace out what you believe is your life. But these are simply Knowings in the eternal Now. They are thinking, imagining, happening Now.
There is no object-me that has moved around and formed a life. There is, instead, thinking and feeling happening, unfolding Now, which is accompanied by thinking “this is what happened to me”. No - this is the wrong framing. This or that action or event did not happen to me, or by me - this thinking, this feeling, this knowing, this aware-ing - is me.
You are a Word speaking, a word spoken - a dynamism.
You don’t have a life. You are Life. Dynamic, unfolding, One, celebratory, exploratory, Knowing.
It is ok to play at having a life - everything is ok. Knowing is ok. Life is playing at knowing humanly.
Release that there is no limited subject, who is having a life. Take knowing as it is, right Now. Do not add an object-me, who is having this knowing.
Or do - it is ok. All is well.
I think Jimi Hendrix was onto this in his song 'Are You Experienced?' - Are we experience, or are we being experienced? I listen to that song in a new light since flirting with the ideas of non-duality.